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Every year, when Jensen's birthday rolls around, I always have one of these moments of thinking that he can't possibly be that old, he was just 28. This year, Jensen turned 39 and I thought - no, can't be, that will make him 40 next year and I can't really be just realizing this now, can I? Except, along with whatever age Jensen is turning, it is a reminder that in a few short weeks, I will again be turning ten years older than he is and that means 49. Today.

I know age is just a number and all that but for whatever reason, I am more acutely aware that with this birthday, I am growing older and that time has passed more quickly than I have been aware of. What? I was just 28. I am not depressed, just really baffled by how quickly I got here. I don't like to think of the passing of time. Maybe it is because moving forward in time brings change along with it and I'm not a fan. Maybe I'm marking this new year more now that my body no longer lives on a schedule that follows the moon, only by the weeks and months set out by St. Gregory, the patron saint of day-planners. Maybe it is because my kid told me that in a year, I'll be halfway to 100. Whatever the reason, I am looking at my age as a number and that number seems to loom bigger than it probably should.

Despite this new, not utterly welcome recognition, I am still grateful to be here and am looking forward to this next year. In many ways, I am happy to leave last year behind. The bad was elected and Must Not Be Named plus we lost a lot of folks that meant a lot to me. The good stuff was things like putting the basement back together after a flood, actually getting a paying job for the first time in 13 years, lime Icelandic yogurt, walks with dogs, some decisions made about what to do after retirement, getting done with therapy and feeling better, my first smart phone - emojis, where have you been all my life, watching my kid grow into a full-fledged, tumblr-using fangirl, the arrival of Arrow and Zeppelin Ackles, and another Padalecki on the way.

To end one year and start another and to get a break from the Minnesota winter, I'm in Florida for spring break and here is the sand dragon we made on the beach.

Come on 49, I got this.


( 22 comments — Leave a comment )
Mar. 24th, 2017 12:01 am (UTC)
May the next ten years be as good for you as they were for me! Happy Birthday!

ETA: Really cool dragon, too!

Edited at 2017-03-24 03:01 am (UTC)
Mar. 24th, 2017 08:35 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I'm thinking they will. I'm going to savor them.
Mar. 24th, 2017 12:30 am (UTC)
Yeah you do :)

Happy birthday and wishing you many more!
Mar. 24th, 2017 08:36 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the well-wishes!
Mar. 24th, 2017 12:58 am (UTC)
As you say 49 is only a number, nothing less, nothing more.
Is it your birthday today, honey? HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, my friend!
May most of your wishes come true (we should leave some for next year :-)))!
The sand Dragon ist great!!! It's face Looks like Smaug's!
Mar. 24th, 2017 08:38 pm (UTC)
Our dragon insists that he is much better looking than Smaug. He wishes he had B. Cumberbatch's hair though. 8-)
Mar. 24th, 2017 01:50 am (UTC)
You own this year, take it and make it great! Happiest of happies bb x♥x
Mar. 24th, 2017 08:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Excited for you about the new job opportunity. Anyone'd be lucky to have you on their staff.
Mar. 24th, 2017 03:45 am (UTC)
*GenX fistbump* ( :

Happy, happy birthday--and many sand dragons to come.
Mar. 24th, 2017 08:40 pm (UTC)
Returns the fistbump! Thanks 8-)
Mar. 24th, 2017 03:49 am (UTC)
Happy birthday, sweetie! I hope that your day, and your vacation, are both amazing! Also, that is one beautiful dragon you made there. :)
Mar. 24th, 2017 08:42 pm (UTC)
Thank you! The vacation has been very much needed.
Mar. 24th, 2017 09:12 am (UTC)
Happy birthday to you! And like you say your age is just a number, and it's a pretty darn good one too!

Take care and many happy returns :)
Mar. 24th, 2017 08:43 pm (UTC)
Only a number and all will be well. Thanks!
Mar. 24th, 2017 04:16 pm (UTC)
Whoa, this dragon is awesome! I love the dorsal crest, claws and the pointy stone for tooth.

And Happy Birthday! :)

Edited at 2017-03-24 07:17 pm (UTC)
Mar. 24th, 2017 08:44 pm (UTC)
The dragon was fun. The sand is great building sand and it's been great to be outside.
Mar. 24th, 2017 04:21 pm (UTC)
Happy birthday :)

Mar. 24th, 2017 08:45 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
Mar. 25th, 2017 09:45 pm (UTC)
Happy belated birthday!
Mar. 25th, 2017 09:50 pm (UTC)
Thanks! It was a good day.
Mar. 29th, 2017 04:33 am (UTC)
Happy Belated Birthday!!!!

Cool dragon. Or should I say hot dragon :DD I don't know if you watch Game of Thrones?
Mar. 31st, 2017 10:13 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I haven't watched much GoT but know there are dragons. Ours is too lazy to get wound up in any hunt for a throne. 8-)
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